I have to admit that there is one thing to do with children that I find really hard.
No, not throw up-or blood-or broken bones-not even the birds and the bees...
Me I have a hard time spanking.
Although I know they need it, although that is the only thing that sometimes needs to be done. Well, it is so freaking hard for me. Unless I am really, really mad.
We had two children that deserved spankings this week.
My Mini-Me who is almost never bad had two episodes that both deserved spankings. The first one she got grounded-since I always give a second chance. The biggest rule at my house is not put your hands on anyone else and she broke that rule. So, grounded and then a few days later-she pulls a knife on her brothers-yes and not a fun play knife-one from the board! So yes she deserved a spanking-I couldn't bring myself to do it-so let Hubby do it. At first he said "I will spank her with the belt"-noooo...not that. Her butt is way too little. So he said he would use his hand and when I called back a few minutes later-the deed was done-when I asked how many whacks she got...three...ok.
So then tonight well Tweeny Todd got upset because there was an extra pan to wash-I mean screaming, tears, and alot of "no, I am not doing it". So, he was grounded, then I felt bad and I started doing the dishes. I got in trouble with hubby cause he was going to make him do them. Well I left him the pans and he came out of his room and started about how we didn't care, he couldn't wait to move off and never see my face again! Well that was the stick that broke the camels back and that started an hour long-"poor me" ending with a spanking. My hubby handed me the belt-and I gave him chances to get out of it and he wouldn't so I told him he could have 20 licks-but once I got out 10 I couldn't do it and left. My hubby said that was not even hard and he was screaming "is that it-it was only 10-why was it not harder". My hubby yelled back to him"Because she loves you" Wait TT's little mind started going-I thought they didn't even care and yet she can't spank me.
So even though I will do it I hate hitting them, I hate spanking them because it makes me think of my childhood and that was not good.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Changes
Time changes and there are times when I wish that things would stay the same. Then again, change is good. So, what me-nothing has changed me lately? Well thoughts that are in my mind make me wonder what is going on-am I crazy-what should I do with all these thoughts. I have not been writing because well I get busy doing-who knows and never get to write down what is going on.
Well it is April and in May I am going to walk across the stage and become a college graduate. I have been looking hard for a job, one that has a promise of perhaps paying for those loans I took out to get trough college. I recently had to go to the doctor so I'm trying harder than ever to find a job that has health insurance benefits. My job now has the benefit of your birthday as a paid holiday-whoppee!! Anyway, good new on that front is that I got a slight raise, I am now salaried, witch means that I don't have to do the clock watching.
So,in my Private life there is so, so much that I could write here. We were doing so well, we were actually connecting in ways that were wonderful-then nothing. Literally every thing stopped and he began the great-play on the computer all the freaking time. I mean I love him and I try to give him the benefit of the doubt, that he just does this like I like to read books-but at least if he asked me to, I would be there to watch TV with him, I would stop everything if he were to just ask-him-no way-no way at all. Sometimes I fell totally alone when he is right in the room with me-so what to do-scream, cry? No, i will just write it down and every now and then complain about it. So sad-
The kids-well they are a constant happy place, except they have the terrible fighting problem. Only with each other-fight about everything and it is soooo incredibly annoying, I want to cry with frustration-but hey that would just not work! Evan is totally teenage annoying and the other two are just regular child annoying.
This post sounds like I am unhappy-unfortunately right now-that happens to be true!
Well it is April and in May I am going to walk across the stage and become a college graduate. I have been looking hard for a job, one that has a promise of perhaps paying for those loans I took out to get trough college. I recently had to go to the doctor so I'm trying harder than ever to find a job that has health insurance benefits. My job now has the benefit of your birthday as a paid holiday-whoppee!! Anyway, good new on that front is that I got a slight raise, I am now salaried, witch means that I don't have to do the clock watching.
So,in my Private life there is so, so much that I could write here. We were doing so well, we were actually connecting in ways that were wonderful-then nothing. Literally every thing stopped and he began the great-play on the computer all the freaking time. I mean I love him and I try to give him the benefit of the doubt, that he just does this like I like to read books-but at least if he asked me to, I would be there to watch TV with him, I would stop everything if he were to just ask-him-no way-no way at all. Sometimes I fell totally alone when he is right in the room with me-so what to do-scream, cry? No, i will just write it down and every now and then complain about it. So sad-
The kids-well they are a constant happy place, except they have the terrible fighting problem. Only with each other-fight about everything and it is soooo incredibly annoying, I want to cry with frustration-but hey that would just not work! Evan is totally teenage annoying and the other two are just regular child annoying.
This post sounds like I am unhappy-unfortunately right now-that happens to be true!
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