Week 6

Well so far I have now lost 15 lbs-12.5 inches from around my body-4 just from the waist alone!! Can I get an AMEN-HALLALUAH!! I even need new clothes-love it!! 2 sizes smaller! So excited! Good thing is I am smaller than I have been since 2004-so that is awesome!!

So only 10 more lbs to the first goal and I know I will make it!

In other news-hubby said he would be willing to do the whole DD thing,BUT-so far nada. I did get sex because I was a bitty! I recently told a friend who is having trouble in his marriage-if he was willing to continue in his bad, failing marriage for 15 more years:reality check-am I??

Brighter news have found another old boyfriend that I didnt know I still had these feelings for-guess what? I do and it really sucks-cause "what could have beens" are so hard to face-as are "what nows"?

So, I talked with hubby and I am giving him a reasonable amount of time to react!

More to come? So what is a reasonable amount of time?

HMMMMMMMMM

Week three or four...

Hunger-thats all I can say-I am soooo hungry. I over ate last week, Love Halloween and now that I am all out of goodies, I am hungry!! LOL I know I should have stuff around the house to nibble on, but I dont.

I have been productive and I give credit to my new drug and my new found, lost friend.

So, what is it that I do to men, that make them want me-still, after years and years? I have no idea-I dont see where I do anything better, more, etc than anyone else. I had one man on the line for what-23 years-then this new one-16 years-WHAT?? Ok then I ask no more questions, but I now know that I need to be careful. I guess it comes from loving without abandon. I never halfway give myself to a person. I am always loving to the fullest. Like Ihave always said if I tell you I love you-you better beleive I always will. Will I act on it-hmmmmm, stay tuned. He does look fantastic!! Really fantastic!!

Graditude Month

Nov. is national Count your Blessings month. As of this month I do have many blessings in my life. My family-hubby and the kids-even the furry ones. Counting your blessings is a wonderful thing. In the middle of losing weight again I do have to say that keeping up beat is the way to go.

Diet

Week 2 was fairly un-fantastic. We went out and I didnt splurge, I ate normal and I made sure to get grilled, no extras, no frys. It so happened the resturants that we went to, had those choices, I am sure someday I will be at a resturant that I cannot eat perfect-then I will do my very best and get over what I cant!!

Unofficial loss this week is 4lbs. I say unofficial for two reasns, one-its not the right day and 2-I started my monthly and that usually means extra water weight. We will see, tomorrow is the official by the books weigh in and yes that means that I didnt keep my own promise. But, it kills me really, wanted to make sure I hadn't splurged on too much halloweenie!!

But, unofficially I have lost 9lbs-only 81 left to lose-go me, go me!!

Woohoo

This Just in...

Just so that everyone knows-the Weight Watchers program is working!!

I have lost 5Lbs!!

Go me-now i I can just keep that up I will be all good!

Also, went to new doctor today, really love the PA that I saw-Wendy was awesome, didnt make me feel bad or anything-awesome women!

Yippee

Why Fast Food Annoys me...

OK, so I have started my new lifestyle-using Weight Watchers and watching what I am eating. Well I always like to give myself a little treat now and then-not a crazy fat filled whole day-but a treat never the less. My favorite thing these days is frozen coffee-my favorite frozen coffee-McDonald's Mocha Frappe. This frappe is fantastic! So, I was like lets figure out how bad it rally is-its just frozen coffee right....wrong!

From McDonald's Website:

Ok so the Medium size
16 oz
Calories-560
Total fat-24g
Saturated(the bad stuff) 15g
carbs-78g
Sugars 70g

So Points Value??-13 points-more than a steak, potato with sour cream and veggies

Alright-so holy freaking cow!!
I can do better right?
Well they have a Carmel one too, since I have the ingredients for the Carmel I will make it-first will post that total-
Caramel Frappe
16 oz
550 Calories, 24 g of fat,15 Sat fat, 76 Carbs, and 71 Sugars

Amy's Frappe

Ok I started with Coffee(30 cal, 0),Vanilla Caramel Creamer(60 cal, 3 Fat), splenda added for sweetness-total so far-90 Calories-To this I added a no calorie, no fat, caramel syrup I found in the coffee isle-it smells awesome. So I poured this and ice into blender and several minutes later I had my Frappe-I then added whipped cream a whole 20 calories to top.

Lets compare-the taste by the way-mine was better and had more coffee taste. It did take me a few minutes-couldn't just drive through-but besides that I shaved-460 calories, 21 grams of fat, all of the sat fat and sugars. So, whats the deal?? Why does McDonald's say this is blended coffee-how the hell do they get 24 grams of fat in there? Caramel is fat free naturally-coffee is low cal and no fat-so my question is are they adding fat to something that could be just a tasty frozen treat-I think that the answer is YES!!

So, next shopping trip I am going to try to make me a Mocha one-have some ideas how to make it-without all the extra fat!!

How else do fast foods annoy me-they take something healthy-salad, chicken, etc and may it bad for you-I hope America wakes up and stops letting them get away with it!!

Ok-here we go again

I have an addiction-really a complusion. I am fat-I like to eat and all the bad things too. So, this year we have cut out fried foods(occasionally I do get some);I am eating more veggies, turning down bread and processed food. I lost about 30 lbs felt real good about myself-so I slacked off!! Bad-Amy

Now I have decided that I have gained too much back and off to the diet race I go again. The thought is, how am I going to keep myself on track this time? I am making a pact with myself and will track progress here!

1-I will write down everything I consume-no cheating-even if it is bad!
2-If I have a craving I will try to devert my attention with something else.
3-I will weigh only once a week!
4-I will reward success with money into an account instead of food! maybe a dollar for each pound-I know its only 100 bucks after I am finished-or less-but it is something!
5-I will do measirements/weights and write them down even if they are bad.
6-My goals will be small-10% at a time
7-I will ask for help from my husband
8-I will not deprive myself to the point I am ready to eat coco powder all by itself
9-I have done this before-I can do it again
10-I will stop yo-yo!!

Ok, so there I go-a pact with me and me alone! I wish me luck and only have to say that I am already beautiful, smart, funny, and loving-now lets just add healthy and diabetes free(have type 2)!

Why I am a Terrible Blogger

LMAO-has it really been since 2008 that I blogged? I guess so, but hey-its not like I had followers that were craving my words of wisdom-or at least I think that is the case-right???

Well, I am looking for a place to collect my thoughts-to babble on to myself on "paper" instead of in my head!! I think it is going to explode if I don't get some of them out-so here it goes again. If I can get them out maybe I can become a little less idle at home. Although the bed may miss me, I hate cleaning and this will give me somewhere to talk about the things that are going on.

So, currently I am researching the subject of Poyamory-Polgyny-Polyandry-etc,etc... Why you may ask am I researching this subject? More for my own curiosity than anything. I used to think that a person could only love or better be "in" love with one person at a time, this was when I was young a would let myself think this. Now I do believe that it was a coping mechanism that helps the human being move on. Just think if we continued to love a person how hard would that be. Could we go on and believe that what we thought was love was nothing more than a virus caused by lust? We could...but is that the truth?

I have had many loves-I had my first love(whom I am now married to after 20-something years), I have my "high-school" sweetheart, my first husband, my married friend, and my current boyfriend. OK so that makes what-5, is it possible that all 5 times I was wrong?

I guess the question is how many of these 5 am I still in Love with? The answer is 4-the ex-husband killed any feeling that I had for him many years ago! So technically I am currently in love with 4 people-is it fair? Not really... Do I actively reach out to all of them-yes. Do I still wonder what I am thinking...all the time!

I mean-first-I love my husband-I adore him, we have a great marriage-except-there is always an except with me and men. Hence the wondering about Polyamory! So, have dabbled in Swinging-Blah!!! Have gotten the ok to have a boyfriend-ok-this is working out-well maybe.

So second problem-3 of the 4 are married and as such cannot be mine-not totally that is. I will take what I can, usually friendship and flirting. I can handle that, well maybe not. I dont want to ruin any marriages, I do not want to be the "other" women that broke up a perfectly fine family. However, one of the 4 has permission to have a girlfriend, but...how open is she really?? In my perfect world, what if the social aspect of having one and only one partner were unnatural? I want to be able to love, be loved and not be hindered by old-fashion norms- I want to be able to show my love-no not sex-love. I am a strange creature really-love is a strong emotion that until recently I thought we could manage-hence the forgetting-but that is not true-I have no control-4 of the 4 mentioned above-I am actively "in love" with-meaning my heart beats faster, I smile, I get all nervous and silly, and I want to hug, kiss, etc them all the time when around them. This doesnt take away from my husband, cause he is one of those that makes my heart skip-but he gets me(what a prize). He gets me all the time, my good and my bad. In essence he is doing all the work, but sharing the rewards. Then again, is love different with him depending on the closeness? Anoher good question.

So, I am delving into this subject-cause people are weird, we create so many things-laws etc that make no sense and go against the teachings of religion. Religion itself is against itself-well that is another topic. As I wonder and search for answers all I can do it think what a perfect life for me would be.....

hmmm next post-Amy's perfect 4 man marriage!!